Night time excursion

Funnily enough, the bar was fine. I was mildly anxious, but I enjoyed it, and laughed, and didn't feel like I was completely going through the motions anymore. It was nice (a break from being completely terrified all the time) and I had a good talk with housemates that I hadn't seen for a while (as I've been staying with my boyfriend). I didn't drink alcohol at all (juice and water, oh, I'm so exciting) because I think it makes me more anxious.

At the moment I'm feeling a bit scared. I'm worried the walk back with have hurt me. I'm worried my chest pain is serious. I'm worried I'm about to break down and cry and that I won't be able to sleep tonight.  I'm breathing okay but it's a bit raspy...I have a cold and it's making my breathing worse. Is it okay to cry twice in a day? I also keep getting cold shivers all over me because this house is fucking cold. And a few minor eye disturbances (I'm reacting quite heavily to light and get a bit dizzy at times too).

I want to be calm.

I want to be calm.

There is nothing wrong with me.

There is nothing wrong with me.

I want to be calm.

I want to be calm.

There is nothing wrong with me.

There is nothing wrong with me.

I am fine.

I am fine.

This pain is from anxiety.

This pain is from anxiety.

I am going to be happy and recover.

I am going to be happy and recover.

There are people I can talk to if I'm feeling low or scared.

There are people I can talk to if I'm feeling low or scared.

I am going to be okay.

I am going to be okay.